Gifts #1020 – #1044

Karen and I met through this blog while we were both in treatment for cancer. She is a California girl, and came all the way to Nebraska to meet me. Since then our hearts have been bonded, never to let go. I have visited her in Cali and she has been here twice. I have fallen hard for her family and she has done the same with mine.
Hearing that Karen is NED (no evidence of disease) is some of the best news I have ever received. You see, I worry about her. She had triple negative breast cancer, which is a type of breast cancer that is aggressive and there is not as many treatment options for. Not only that, but it has shown her just how aggressive it can be. We finished treatment about the same time, but, my dear friend ended up having to get double treatment. After reading a post here at New Nostalgia about survivors checking lymph nodes, she reached under her arm and found an almond shaped lump. Her cancer was back already. She went on a little get away with her husband to process this awful news, and ended up getting in a car accident there. She had to learn how to walk again before starting another tough regimen of cancer treatment. She is the strongest woman I know, both inside and out.
Waiting this last week, holding my breath with her as she prepared to know what was on the inside, reminded me of this post I wrote early in my battle with cancer. I thought I would share it with you again.
I peer deeper,
I see Him in whose Image I am made.
I find the solution.
Who am I that you are mindful of me?
So many blessings as far as the eye can see.
Your creation speaks to me.
Your open hand holds gifts & you whisper “Delight in them, my child… I love you.”
Gifts of birds singing. Chirps, tweets, & caws all singing in harmony, yet each taking its turn.
Gifts of calm waters reflecting early morning light. Gentle ripples coming towards, bringing your love.
Surrounded by trees, fresh wet with rain, limbs cracking adding to the chorus.
Baby deer stare, also mindful of me. Your creation creatures.
This place of rest, a cabin holding so many I love. My deep love grows even deeper for them, the gift of people, my family.
Little niece in a polka dot robe, another holding her polka dot blankie, sleepy just waking.
Cousins gather at the crack of dawn, ready to fish with Grandpa. Cereal spoons clinking making their own song as children sit staring, trying to wake up.
The noise leaves with Grandpa, parents left behind hold mugs of steaming strong coffee, a shared pot.
This gift of quiet shows how mindful you are of me. You know what fills me. You give me what I need and beyond. You are the gift giver & your hands are full. You offer, I receive. I am grateful.
I didn’t know what to expect this Easter, as I have not been feeling well and our usual family extended family plans didn’t happen this year. I did have a sense of relief that I could rest if I needed to, but I wanted the day to feel important…because it is.
The Easter bunny usually is on top of things at our house and has the baskets ready and waiting when our girls wake up. This year I woke up in a panic, realizing I had completely forgotten to get their baskets ready. I made an announcement that they would receive their baskets after they got ready for church to buy myself some time!
Our baskets contained jelly beans, some chocolate, & a golden egg with a few bucks in it. Our girls are getting older and prefer cash instead of junk food or gifts, so that makes things easy.
Church this morning was amazing. Our 2 older girls sat in with us this week. I loved having them next to me. We also got there early enough (miracle) to say hello to my in-laws. I love them so much and it was good to see them on such a special day. The service was beautiful & a highlight for me was a video that they showed, which I will share below.
Another highlight for me was listening to my sister-in-law play the violin. She played through the whole service, but her part in the song “In Christ Alone” was my favorite. It gave me chills.
I felt a bit lightheaded during the service and had to hold on to my Todd or sit down for a few of the songs. I didn’t like that and hoped that food would help.
We went to the early service, so we were out of church by 10:30. We planned to go out for brunch. My goal is to only cook hard boiled eggs for coloring later this afternoon, so going out to eat was perfect.
My middle girl was not too into having her picture taken, so I had to be sneaky. Isn’t she cute?
We got home and it has been a beautiful, super chill afternoon. We have the windows open and everyone is just hanging out. I put some eggs on to boil and my girls are dipping them as I type. I plan on using the extra eggs to make egg salad sandwiches for tonight’s dinner, which we plan on eating while watching recorded episodes of The Bible. Seems appropriate for the day, don’t you think?
I’m sitting by an open window and I hear my Todd busy outside. One of my girls just told me he is getting our bikes all pumped up and ready to ride. This makes me very happy and eager to get my energy back up!!
Oops..got girl drama at the Easter egg table so I need to sign off. It is a good reminder of how broken we all are, especially me, as my blood pressure starts to go up at the first sign of bickering.
I’m also reminded of this beautiful video that was shown this morning at our church service. It shows how broken is made whole in such a beautiful way. I’d love if you took the time to watch it.
I would love to know what you think of the video.
I’d also love to know what you are up to this Easter day!