Five minutes to write on the word: Welcome.
Write–don’t edit–just 5 minutes to be in the moment–
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Go:
These words, these songs of JJ Heller’s, they speak my heart, they lift my head.
Goodbye 2014
I say goodbye to last year, 2014. Good riddance.
It was a year of struggle, of mental tug of war, of hormones switched on and off by monstrous needles jabbing each month, of watching those I love suffer and some of them lose everything.
Still much to be thankful for, I grasped at those thankful moments all the while sinking in despair. At the end of the year I willed myself to list my thankful, sometimes it felt like that list was the only pathway to reality & truth.
2014. You were a hard year.
Welcome 2015
With you comes a fresh start, for His promises never change and He makes all things new.
There is still suffering and sweet friends waiting in anguish on test results and others with stage 4 diagnosis & those damn monthly needles in my stomach whose thought of them makes it churn.
But. As sweet JJ Heller and her handsome husband sing,
I am not focusing on the ‘cracks in the walls or the times that I fall.’
I WILL NOT.
Because:
*It’s all becoming so clear
There is no use living in regret
Let’s fight a good fight
Train our eyes to find the light
That makes this year the best one yet!
Starting right here
I will not live in the dark room. Not when my saving Savior is wooing me to the light room.
The Man That I Love
And for the man that I love:
*This year
I plan on thinking less of “I” and “me”
I resolve to think of “us” and “we”
This year
I can’t wait to see what good will come
To feel alive instead of feeling numb
This year
How? How can I say these things with such certainty and without looking back? How will I run to the safety of the light room?
By welcoming truth.
The truth is, I have someone who will (in the words of another beautiful song by Heller)
*Love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
I open my eyes from looking at all the despair,
I will lift my head & run to the light room and a God that says:
*I will give you the love
The love that you never knew
So, to 2015 I say “Hello & Welcome.”
Sue
January 10, 2015 at 8:10 amStopping by from FMF. I can so relate to your reflection on a difficult year. I feel like 2014 was the first year I didn’t have a year like that for the past five or six years. I have come to the point where I view each day as a new beginning (because a year is so long to wait), but that new year truly is a place where we (and everyone around us) can see a clean slate and a new beginning. I hope that your 2015 is full of love, laughter and much more comfort.
Sarah Lowther Hensley
January 9, 2015 at 2:53 pmYes! Welcome the new year…the new day…the enduring hope. -Sarah (Stopping by from Five Minute Friday.)
Trisha Carter
January 9, 2015 at 1:45 pmI really liked your post!! You are an overcomer!! Welcome to 2015, the year of greatness. Your greater is coming!!! Visiting from #fmfparty