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Good To Be Alive

Rainy Downtown Day

Well, it has been back to school week here at the Bowman house.  I have to admit, I AM LOVING the quiet and time to think, work & clean!  I feel a sense of relief that we made it through summer and I was able to balance being a mom and blogger.

Honestly, it was one of the first summers that didn’t end with a feeling regret.  In the past, I would regret how I spent my time, words I used, impatience I had with my kids, money I spent.  The list goes on.

I’ve been reflecting on what has made the difference.  I think growth happens as we age.  I also think I am experiencing the positives of going through a life threatening illness and the perspective it brings. It is funny how life can grow a person, how God uses the hard in life to stretch us and show us what is important.  I also think listing the gifts has changed me dramatically, it sure helps put life into perspective and trains my eyes to see life through the lens of contentment.

I know grace has a lot to do with it, for I was not perfect. Far from it.  I have learned to give grace and accept grace in those imperfect moments, stopping and realizing ‘life is not an emergency” as Ann Voskamp says. I’ve learned that it is ok for life to not go exactly how I think it should, to stop and take a breath, to let go of expectation and perfection.  These are all things that have contributed to growth.

I have always loved my kids, but since being sick, I have fallen hard for them.  I feel focused on the moments, and I find myself whispering aloud thanksgiving for those moments, in the moment.  Thanksgiving changes a person.  It has changed me.

Precious is the word that keeps coming to mind.  Precious children, precious husband, precious time, precious life.  Life is a precious gift, one that I hold near and dear and do not take for granted.  Folks, it IS GOOD TO BE ALIVE.

I am on a little mom/daughter date with my youngest today.  We went to breakfast, got rained on at the Farmers Market, snuggled under an umbrella, enjoyed 2 elevators in 2 parking garages (lil one loves elevators) and are now sitting in a coffee shop eating brownies and relaxing.  Precious moments.

On the way here, I heard a song in the car that is the perfect life theme song for me right now.  It puts all I am feeling into words.  I especially love part that says “I won’t take it (life) for granted, I won’t waste another second.  All I want is to give you a life well lived to say Thank You.”  Oh for the grace to make this continuously true in my life.

by Jason Grey
Hold on, is this really the life I am living?
‘Cause I don’t feel like I deserve it
Every day that I wake and every breath 
that I take you’ve given

Right here, right now 
while the sun is shining down

I wanna live like there’s no tomorrow
Love like I’m on borrowed time
it’s good to be alive, yeah, yeah

Hold on if the life that we’ve been given
Is made beautiful in the living
And the joy that we get 
brings joy to the heart of the Giver

Then right here, right now
This is the song I’m singing out

I wanna live like there’s no tomorrow
Love like I’m on borrowed time
it’s good to be alive
I wanna live like there’s no tomorrow
Love like I’m on borrowed time
it’s good to be alive, yeah

I won’t take it for granted
I won’t waste another second 
All I want is to give you
A life well lived to say, “Thank you”


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  • cgashley
    August 19, 2012 at 2:53 pm

    How did I miss the blessing of Jason Gray? Thanks Amy, for including this inspirational song–it sent me right off to buy the album for myself.

    • Amy Bowman
      August 23, 2012 at 2:22 pm

      IKR! He is amazing.

  • Christine - Tutorial Addict :)
    August 19, 2012 at 2:45 am

    Love your posts like this one 🙂 They always seem to speak right to my heart. Thank you so much 🙂

    • Amy Bowman
      August 23, 2012 at 2:17 pm

      Comments like yours gives me permission to continue to be open and write my heart. Thank you.

  • sweetmelbelle31
    August 19, 2012 at 3:00 am

    Thank you for sharing 🙂 I read your blog often, your attitude about life is what I strive for. I’m currently struggling really badly with depression and anxiety. I have such horrible intrusive thoughts about the future and it robs my daily joy. I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis 9 years ago when I was 25. I’m now currently 27 weeks pregnant. I’ve been having unexplained breast swelling and redness for the past entire year. I’ve seen breast surgeons and dermatologists, both have told me it’s dermatitis. Wouldn’t preform any other tests or biopsies, just sent me on my way. Everything on Google says Breast Cancer.

    Please pray for me!

    • Amy Bowman
      August 23, 2012 at 2:22 pm

      I’m sorry to hear about your depression and anxiety. I can relate to the anxiety part and I want to encourage you to seek help. Meds changed my life, I can now be the ME God created me to be. My faith has also been key, & therapy. Fight! It is worth it when the answers finally come and you find the right treatment.

      I say follow your gut with the swelling/redness. Get second opinions. Ask the doctor SPECIFICALLY about Inflammatory Breast Cancer, many are unfamiliar with this. Ask how can they rule that out specifically.

      Blessings to you, Sweet Mel Belle! Let me know if you get any answers in both areas.