Saturday I found myself in “preparing for chemo” mode. I know I will be pretty checked out for a few days, so it is important to me to have household stuff in order. I stuck one of Ann’s homemade meals in the oven–meatloaf–it made my home smell wonderful and it was so nice to not worry about dinner after a tiring day. I baked her peach pie, too, and we had a great family night watching our favorite shows and piggin’ out on great food!
Today was a wonderful day. We went to church in the morning, I was greeted with a hug by our pastors wife right when I walked in the door. She is so genuine and caring and wonderful.
We went to my in-laws for what we call our monthly “Pizza Sunday” We have an awesome, large family and I really look forward to these every month. I was especially excited because my bro-in-law, Cory, told me he’d let me shave his head in honor of me:) It was super fun, we did a mo-hawk first, then buzzed his entire head. The kids got a kick out of watching, it was a fun moment.
Tonight I ran around like a crazy women just preparing for chemo tomorrow. It reminds me a bit of nesting, just not as fun:) There is a feeling of anticipation, of wanting to get everything in order for a big, coming event. My event is nasty chemo– blech. I just want everything as easy on my family as possible while I am sick this week, so that feeling has kept me busy this evening. I am ready!! Sorta..
I am not looking forward to the hard parts of the week.
Here are a few prayer requests if I may..
~I’d really like to make it through a banquet the my husband is speaking at tomorrow night. It will be right after a day of chemo, so I’m not sure how I will do.
~That I would get through the “fog” moments. Not just get through them, but I long to use them as a chance to “Be Still, and Know that He is God” It is not a good feeling to be aware in your mind of what is going on, but so tired/weak that you are unable to keep your eyes open or talk without mumbling. I was only like that for about a day and 1/2 last session, so instead of freaking out about it, I really want to use it as a time to experience a stillness with my Jesus, and be aware that He is with me.
~ I’m anxious to know the measurement of the tumor, and if my Doctor thinks it has shrunk as much as I think it has. Pray that it has!
~My white blood cell count has been very high both times I got tested the last couple weeks. 😛 I’m so blessed! There is a possibility that if it is still high, they will skip the Neulasta shot that I have to get the day after chemo. This shot stimulates the bones to produce more white blood cells. It was very uncomfortable and at times very painful, and lasted 4-5 days. The pain medication I took is what messed my digestive system all up, so if I could skip all of that, it would be so very awesome.
~that my kids would be at peace with mom being sick and tired again for awhile. That they would remember it only lasts a few days and will be over soon. They have been doing so well, I am so very proud of them.
~last but not least, would you pray for my friend, Jill? I just met her online and she is a fellow breast cancer fighter, who was recently diagnosed. She just had some hard news that her cancer is in her hip and spine. She has 3 children. She is a dear and could really use your prayers right now.
Thank you all for your prayers and all your awesome comments. They make me smile, I am so grateful.