I see you, Mother.
You are mine. A gift.
I take a minute to see of all the good in you, and it takes many minutes as one memory leads to another.
Minutes tick, memories come, and I know some of the most life- giving and life-serving moments you gave me, are the ones that I have no memory of.
I see Mom, young
The moments you spent with me as a babe, nursing & bathing. Whispering sweet nothings and singing melodies. I know you sang to me with that beautiful voice of yours, so beautiful that at one point in time you traveled and shared with others your melodic singing voice.
You have told me so many times that some of your favorite memories are of us as babes, on your hip. You would recount the memories and start to bounce, and I can picture it years before, Mother bouncing daughter on her hip. A mother’s hip, the perfect perch, a shapely mold made for bouncing babies.
I grow, as do my 4 siblings, and Mother grows busy. I now am grown and have 3 of my own, and I, too, have grown busy. How oh Mom, did you do it with 5?
I know you sacrificed. I know you spent days serving. Constant mouths to feed and bills to pay and house to clean, laundry to fold. So many underlying worries that I was too young to understand.
You did her best and yet would say your best was not good enough. Don’t we all, us Mothers, feel this way? I disagree, Mommy, I saw your best. What more can one do but their best?
I see Mom, sad.
The day wedding ring slipped & flew across the floor and disappeared forever in an air vent. You walked committed to a marriage, with a finger naked too many years. Oh if only I were older then and known better, I would find a way to get a ring right back on that finger. I would make you one if I had to, for I know this absent ring broke your heart and you longed for the symbol of completeness and commitment. These things matter to us women. I am now woman and I play with my own wedding ring as I pause from writing, thinking of your pain. I remember your beautiful ring, and those long elegant fingers, and I too, now mourn. I mourn for what became and how your heart broke when marriage broke and the pain nearly split you in half. I mourn that I was not able to comfort you in your pain, for broken marriages bring pain to whole families, and my own paralyzed, as did my age.
I see Mom, happy.
You sing silly. Do YOUR Ears Hang Low? Do They Wobble To & Fro? Can You Tie Them In A Knot, Can You Tie Them In a Bow? and How Much Is That Doggy In The Window? I hear your giggle, I see at times your child-like delight in the quirky details that to many walk through this life and miss. I see you embrace the part of yourself that is free spirit, I learn to let go of my control as I watch you delight in the free.
I see Mom, most loyal.
One of the most precious gifts you have shown to me is how to be loyal. You never speak ill of your children, especially from one of your children to another. You do not judge us. You are not a gossip. I know I can share with you and you will keep it to yourself.
I see Mom, forgiving.
In many ways, but one specific is we both know I can be so slow in returning phone calls. Your forbearance in this makes me want to call. I will show the same grace to my children, for I have learned from you.
Happy Mothers Day!
Miss Rachel M.May 14, 2012 at 2:38 pm
WOW! Got a little teary-eyed reading this dedication to your mother! Moms, like yours and mine, are amazing! They are strong pillars of faith and wisdom and understanding! I would not be ME with HER and clearly the same is true for your S-hero! God Bless!
Inspired by youMay 14, 2012 at 10:43 am
My mom has been the exact same way. I could not have summed up my mother strength better! I only hope I am being half the mom she has been to me. We have both been blessed with wonderful, supportive, strong mothers. I hope you had a great mother’s day.
rkbsnanaMay 13, 2012 at 3:21 pm
Oh Amy! I only know you through your posts but I love you girl. You and your mom are both so pretty. What a treasure you are to your Mother. A very Happy Mothers Day to you.
Geri JohnsonMay 13, 2012 at 1:24 pm
This is such a wonderful tribute to a wonderful mom! It makes me want to be a better mother figure to everyone in my life! You were very blessed to have such a wonderful mom and we can see that her strengths are in you too. God bless you both on this Mother’s Day!
Kimberly Barillas-TilleyMay 13, 2012 at 10:11 am
I love this! Happy Mother’s Day Blessings to you.
Heidi C.May 13, 2012 at 3:40 am
This is the nicest love letter I ever read to a mom. Your Mom is a special person, this is what made you so special a mom like her. Happy Mothersday to you and your Mom
Laurie@BeautyDivineMay 13, 2012 at 2:57 am
Love this! Read it and teared up a second time haha. Love that picture of mom with the maps – so adorable! Thanks for writing this, Am. By the way – happy mothers day to you too – wish I could be there to shop with you! Have fun and send me pics of what you buy:)
AnonymousMay 13, 2012 at 2:37 am
This is absolutely beautiful! Here I was on Mother’s Day-eve feeling a little sorry for myself because I lost my mom to breast cancer. Your writing was so descriptive that it took me on journey through the wonderful relationship you share with your loving mom. I appreciate you sharing this. Instead of mourning I will do my best to think of the good times and celebrate her life instead. Wishing you all the very best!
Janet Beckwith MacyMay 12, 2012 at 11:25 pm
Beautiful tribute. Love this. I wrote a tribute to my mother this year on my blog as well.
All the happy memories. http://macymemoirs.blogspot.com/
AnonymousMay 12, 2012 at 9:52 pm
Thanks for sharing! I am just beginning the battle against breast cancer. I had a double mastectomy 3 weeks ago. Unfortunately, I cannot be comforted by my mom as she is 91 and has had a stroke and just could not handle this type of news as she seems to get caught in a loop when she gets scared or sad and cannot think of anything else. So, I am wearing baggy tops and don’t hug her too tight and try and put on a brave face when I am with her, but I wish I could lay in her arms and cry – the way I used to as a babe!
EmilyMay 12, 2012 at 9:00 pm
What a beautiful, sweet, and wonderful tribute to your mother! Thanks so much for sharing this!
AnonymousMay 12, 2012 at 8:51 pm
This is so touching, I just got home from speaking at my best friends funeral 5 1/2 year battle. This is beautiful, thank you for sharing.
**** April ****May 12, 2012 at 8:11 pm
That is ABSOLUTELY the most amazingly heartfelt tribute EVER…. what a wonderful relationship you have… and it’s such a testimony to the kind of woman she raised… Happy Mother’s Day to YOU BOTH!