Cancer Journey/ HEALTH

MRI Results

{St. Elizabeth Hospital}
That is all the nurse would tell me, she said Doc would discuss details with me when I come for a follow up.  That really is all I need to know!  Negative!!

I’m so thankful that once again, I received good news.  I do not take this for granted.  I am so, so thankful.

I also want you all to know that I had the privileged of feeling your prayers.  Quite literally.  

Every time I go for these scans it gets easier.  I KNOW that is prayer and the growth that comes when I have consistent reason to lean into Him in scary times.  I did not feel my usual fear.  I felt sadness, some heaviness after I got home from the scan– sort of drained emotionally.  But, not fear.

{reserved parking just for me!}

I felt patience.  Patience is definitely not something that comes easy for me, so that in itself is a miracle.  The only time I felt impatient was when I knew the nurse had my test results back but we had to wait for the Doctor to look them over.  Then my patience wore off, and I felt ticked and wanted to drive to the Doctors office and demand my test results.  I didn’t.  🙂

{so I know who I am}
I felt peace, even when my lucky vein had given up on me.  I am limited already, they can only use my right arm because lymph nodes were removed from the left.  I have tiny veins, and the nurse said sometimes chemo makes veins even smaller.  My lucky vein has formed scar tissue and it ends up bending the plastic tube they try to insert once the needle is in.  Not fun…but, even as the nurse was on her 4th try, 4th area of my arm, I laid there and almost wanted to laugh at myself. I really was quite in awe. The calmness I felt was CRAZY.

It took over 25 minutes, two nurses and 4 maybe 5? pokes to get my I.V. in, and I was completely chill about it. It was not just pokes, but a poke then digging around chasing my tiny veins.  Yikes..I should not have felt calm.  The nurses couldn’t believe it.  I told them my drug was prayer.  I told them about this blog and my readers who pray me through these times and God answers their prayers by making me a completely different person, totally calm to the point of inward giggling while being poked a billion times.  God is funny.  He is good.
{hospital garb}
There was a period of time while I was there that I didn’t feel calm.  I had finished changing into my hospital clothes, and could hear a little boy begging the nurse for no more pokes.  There was terror in his voice. His words turned into a low helpless wail.  I passed his room and his blond head was shaking no, back and forth, eyes full of fear. He looked about 9, my youngest girls age. His little sister watched, face frozen, eyes big. His brave Mother bent over, whispering in his ear.  I wonder what she was saying.  I whispered myself, a prayer for them into the ear of God.  I saw the little boy in the waiting room about an hour later.  His I.V. was still connected to his arm, there was more to come for him.  I walked away on my way home, and prayed that his ‘more to come’ would be short and easy, and that he too, would be on his way home soon.

{a cheerio sticker marks the lymph node}
I thought about how much harder this all would be if it were one of my 3 lovelies.  I’m so thankful it wasn’t and isn’t, and pray it never will be.

I am also so thankful for a clear scan.  I am so thankful for you all. Thank you, once again, for being present with me & for your prayers.

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  • Inspired by you
    August 9, 2012 at 2:31 am

    Such an inspiration and demonstration of faith. You are a strong woman.

  • Anonymous
    July 20, 2012 at 1:59 am

    i have been praying for you! praise the Lord for the good news! Thank you for your blog, Amy!
    i am connected to your journey in more ways than one. Thank you for sharing and may God continue to bless you and your family. Love, Isi

  • Queenie
    July 19, 2012 at 4:13 pm

    Thanking God. For peace, for good news.

  • EllyMae
    July 19, 2012 at 3:12 pm

    Praise the Lord !! I’m so thankful the tests turned out OK. I pray for a happy & healthy life for you and your family!

  • EllyMae
    July 19, 2012 at 3:03 pm

    Praise the Lord !! I’m so thankful the tests turned out OK. I pray for a happy & healthy life for you and your family!

  • happy_wife
    July 19, 2012 at 4:47 am

    Wonderful news!!! Continued prayers for you and your family, and prayers for that sweet little blonde boy as well. God is so faithful!!

  • elaine @ peace for the journey
    July 19, 2012 at 2:02 am

    Great, great news, Amy. Celebrating your life today.

  • Amy Bowman
    July 19, 2012 at 1:33 am

    Thank you ALL! Look at all this love…even from Spain! Overwhelms me. Thank you for taking the time to express it.

  • Helen Deeds
    July 18, 2012 at 9:27 pm

    Yay!!!! Congrats! That has got to be a big relief!

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  • Michelle
    July 18, 2012 at 8:13 pm

    Thank you for sharing… Tears in my eyes… Praying for that little boy, his sister… His mom…

  • Michelle
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  • Patty
    July 18, 2012 at 3:41 pm

    I am so happy for you!

  • Autumn
    July 18, 2012 at 3:40 pm

    Yea! Praise God! He is good, and Nothing is impossible for Him!

  • Jennifer
    July 18, 2012 at 3:29 pm

    WOO HOO!!!! Thanks be to our awesome God! So happy for you Amy 🙂 I have been praying for you, always do. Just also prayed for that little boy. That breaks my heart 🙁 I hope his Mama is holding on strong, like you do.

  • Brenda
    July 18, 2012 at 1:48 pm

    Praise God from whom ALL blessings flow! Awesome news! Thank you for the privilege of inviting us into your life and for the honor of praying for you. Amen & Amen!

  • Anonymous
    July 18, 2012 at 1:46 pm

    I love your blog and your writings. Yes, I have prayed for you…lifting you before the Throne of Grace and for Jesus to so be with you and your family. Thank You Lord for good news!
    Bless you,

  • Peppermint Ph.D.
    July 18, 2012 at 1:40 pm

    So relieved and sooo happy!! Will keep the young fella in my prayers as well!

  • Carolyn
    July 18, 2012 at 1:02 pm

    What a blessing you have received. Your faith is unbelievable and the Lord is great. So happy for you and your family, and I bet your grandpa was up there pulling a few strings for you. May you continue with the neg. test.

    July 18, 2012 at 6:34 am

    Rejoicing in this wonderful news!

  • Ana Reyes
    July 18, 2012 at 9:36 am

    Hello from Spain,
    I discovered your blog a couple of weeks ago and only last week I read about your “gone-cancer”. I’ve been trying since then to find the words to write to you. I had the urge, but didn’t know how… Then I read that this week you were going to “pass another exam” and decided to wait for the good news.
    I’m so glad for you. Congratulations.
    Thanks for sharing your art in all you do.

  • simone17
    July 18, 2012 at 2:24 am

    I have goosebumps reading this. WONDERFUL, so happy for you Amy.

  • Vita @ Juicer Depot
    July 18, 2012 at 5:57 am

    Great news! What a relief it must be.

  • Nicole@Show Off Friday
    July 18, 2012 at 5:54 am

    Praise God! That must be such a relief. Isn’t it wonderful how we can feel prayers.

  • karen gerstenberger
    July 18, 2012 at 5:35 am

    I’m joining you in thanksgiving, Amy! God bless you – and that precious little boy (and his family).

  • Anonymous
    July 18, 2012 at 4:21 am

    So glad for you & your family that you have great news!

  • Mud Pie Studio
    July 18, 2012 at 4:03 am

    Wonderful news! Rejoicing with you!

  • Diabra
    July 18, 2012 at 3:33 am

    So glad for you. So, so glad 🙂

  • Emily
    July 18, 2012 at 3:09 am

    So glad to hear this news! Yay and Amen!

  • Cheryl
    July 18, 2012 at 3:06 am

    So thankful, so happy to hear your news! I only know you through your blog, but as someone now in the midst of my own breast cancer battle, you have helped me to look to God. To trust in His time, mercy, goodness and wisdom. Thank you!!

  • Michelle
    July 18, 2012 at 2:38 am

    Ah Amy….Yeah! I have been thinking and praying for you and your family. I don’t even know you except through reading your blog and I feel so relieved for you. Continued prayers heading your way and for the little boy next door.

  • Sue
    July 18, 2012 at 1:50 am

    You have experienced so much yourself that has made you empathetic and kind and thoughtful–and maybe those reading your blog will vicariously take on those attributes as well, realizing how fortunate we are not to be dealing with such issues ourselves right now.

  • Rachael T
    July 18, 2012 at 1:48 am

    So pleased to hear the negative news!!

    • Rachael T
      July 18, 2012 at 1:49 am

      Just re-read that, hope you know what I meant! I mean your results coming back negative, of course. So so happy for you.

  • donna.cox
    July 18, 2012 at 1:44 am

    I don’t even know you yet sit here with tears streaming down my face! What a great day:) Thank you, Father!

  • Erin
    July 18, 2012 at 1:38 am

    Praise God! I don’t know you except through your blog, but I have been praying for you. Reading your results brought tears to my eyes. God is good!

  • Melissa@TheHappierHomemaker
    July 18, 2012 at 1:37 am

    Oh I’m SO happy to hear this!!!!!!!

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