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To Write The Mind Alive

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Five minutes to write on the word: SEND.
Write–don’t edit–just 5 minutes to be in the moment.



Send thoughts upward than inward.  Zero in.

Simply scribe them.Easier said than done, it takes such honesty.

Even if not meant for anyone else, what if someone stumbles upon them?

It is quite a courageous venture, this one I’m about to go on.

To write the mind alive.

I wonder if these 5 minute Fridays have given me a glimpse of what it might be like. Five minutes goes by like a blink and one has no choice but to just write their immediate thoughts.

Writing the mind alive…what’s the word? Proprioceptive Writing? Yes.

It is a whole new world of real.  I have always thought I wrote real, but here before me is another level.

I am eager to send my exact thoughts to paper. Eager to explore and see where it might lead.

It will be different to pen them onto paper, instead of typing and pushing send.

Would you like to come on this adventure with me? Yes? Grab an unlined journal, a candle, a bit of Baroque & a copy of this.




VOTIVO Red currant. My ‘by-far’ favorite candle that my Mommy always gifts to me. You will love it!

Click here to buy.


Happy to be linking up to 5 Minute Friday.

5 Minute Fridays/ Music Renews/ Spiritual

So Long Last Year, Welcome This Year – Five Minute Friday

Five minutes to write on the word: Welcome.

Write–don’t edit–just 5 minutes to be in the moment–



These words, these songs of JJ Heller’s, they speak my heart, they lift my head. 

Goodbye 2014

I say goodbye to last year, 2014.  Good riddance.

It was a year of struggle, of mental tug of war, of hormones switched on and off by monstrous needles jabbing each month, of watching those I love suffer and some of them lose everything.

Still much to be thankful for, I grasped at those thankful moments all the while sinking in despair. At the end of the year I willed myself to list my thankful, sometimes it felt like that list was the only pathway to reality & truth.

2014. You were a hard year.


Welcome 2015

With you comes a fresh start, for His promises never change and He makes all things new.

There is still suffering and sweet friends waiting in anguish on test results and others with stage 4 diagnosis & those damn monthly needles in my stomach whose thought of them makes it churn. 

But. As sweet JJ Heller and her handsome husband sing, 

I am not focusing on the ‘cracks in the walls or the times that I fall.’ 



*It’s all becoming so clear
There is no use living in regret
Let’s fight a good fight
Train our eyes to find the light
That makes this year the best one yet!
Starting right here

I will not live in the dark room.  Not when my saving Savior is wooing me to the light room.

Todd & Amy

The Man That I Love

And for the man that I love:

*This year
I plan on thinking less of “I” and “me”
I resolve to think of “us” and “we”
This year
I can’t wait to see what good will come
To feel alive instead of feeling numb
This year

How?  How can I say these things with such certainty and without looking back? How will I run to the safety of the light room?

By welcoming truth.

The truth is, I have someone who will (in the words of another beautiful song by Heller)

*Love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become

I open my eyes from looking at all the despair,

I will lift my head & run to the light room and a God that says:

*I will give you the love 
The love that you never knew

I come out of the room, fully known, fully loved, whole & true; with a love so familiar, but at times I never knew.

So, to 2015 I say “Hello & Welcome.”


*All words in italics are words from “This Year” & “What Love Really Means” both songs by JJ Heller.  
Her music has been a place I run to in the hardest of times.  I just adore her and her amazing smile, cute bangs & realness on her Facebook page.  What a gift she is & what gifts she has!
Happy to be linking up with 5 Minute Fridays.
5 Minute Fridays/ Spiritual

What I Long For


Participating in 5 Minute Friday.

5 minutes to write about one word. Unedited.

Word: LONG



Lord, you and I have walked this path together for a long time.  The  longer this walk, the more I long for you.

You knit me together while still in the womb, I’ve known of your love even as a child. {Psalm 139:13}

Yes, it has been a long time, yet I still long for you.

You are ever-present, especially in trouble, yet I still long for you. {Psalm 46:1}

You give me your Word. The more I read it, the more I long for you.

You tell me to seek you as one would gold, for your are more precious than diamonds. {Psalm 119:72}

I seek, I find. I long for more of you. {Matthew 7:7}

This thing inside of me, this longing… put there by you, made by You… is for You.

Our hearts yearn for completeness; outside of  You it cannot be found.

Your Kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. {Matthew 6:10}

Oh Lord, I ask, “How long?”



5 Minute Fridays/ Counting Gifts/ Spiritual

Does He Care?

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Participating in 5 Minute Friday.

5 minutes to write about one word. Unedited.

Word: CARE



Does He Care?

Do you find yourself asking this question of our God?

Do you find yourself just in the pit of pain and hardship, wondering when and if it will ever let up?

If you have been there or if you are there now, I shout it loud.


This fallen world that is not our ultimate home is full of disorder, pain & suffering.  This is not how it was meant to be, and someday all will be restored.  Until that day, I want to grab on to this:


God’s got your back, Beloved.  He is for you.  He sees your struggle, hurt and pain.  He sees and promises to bring good out of it all.  There will be release.  There is hope.  It will get better.

In the meantime, join me in looking for His care.  It is all around us you know.

The past month or so has been a doozy for me and honestly there were days that were pure suffering for me both physically and mentally.  I hated every minute of it, but in the midst of it, I knew God still had me.  I knew this because He has brought me through so much already. When I look back, I see it clear that He has used pain and suffering in my life to bring about what matters most.  He has used it to change me.  He has used it to show me how desperately I needed Him and the hope that the suffering of His Son brought.

So in your pain, I encourage you to hold on.  Grasp hard to what is true.


Hold on, even if it by that teeny tiny pinkie.  Raising your hand in faith, even in the midst of slipping, is obedience. Faith the size of a mustard seed can be miraculous when offered to God. You may feel weak, with only the smallest of fingers left holding on; a lonely, scary feeling of losing grip & falling, but guess what?  In your weakness He is strong. He is your strength.  His grasp, even in the slipping, is enough.  He’s got you. His grip is gentle and thorough and enough.


Do you not feel it?  Do you not see it?

I know. I’ve lost sight too.

Let me encourage you to ask for eyes to see the smallest glimpses of this God who loves us so.  Look for the beauty in the pain.  It is there.  Focus on that bright red leaf that falls, dying yet beautiful, a reminder of seasons and how all things will be made new in time.

Find your thankfulness, even in the pain…especially in the pain. Thank Him for even the smallest of things when you can’t bear to look up for anything bigger.

Count them with me?

1. The taste of coffee in the morning.

2. A smile from a stranger.

3. A soft pillow to lay your hurting head.

4. Music.

5. That shirt you are wearing.

It might seem mundane and not worth your while, but just do it.  Start listing the gifts.  There are so many.  Join me.  I’ve stopped counting blessings and I miss the way it changed me and made me see how He cares. It will also change you.  Thankfulness in the midst of pain will change you.

This change might not happen right away, but keep at it.  Let us count together, claim the promise that He cares for us, hold on with the smallest of fingers & open our eyes even to the smallest of blessings.

Let’s count, change, and see together.

In turn, we will start to feel what we know is true.  Sooner rather than later, we will feel His care.



Will you join me & list a few gifts right here and now in the comments?  I’d love to hear of the things that you see, for they, too, will change me.

5 Minute Fridays/ Spiritual

Because He Says So

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Participating in 5 Minute Friday.

5 minutes to write about one word. Unedited.




Because He says so, I will.

He says to shine bright, but in the night, my faith dims.


Morning comes, along with light.

“*Hope sweet hope, like a star burning bright.”

I check my inbox, words from a friend point frantically.

I look where she is **pointing– it is to the Light.


“Let there be light.”


I drive out-of-town, a day away, the sun so bright with rays splayed.

His Light and smile shine down for the hour drive.

It is brilliant because He is.


Sun Ray


“Let there be light.”


I sit and ponder, a message comes–words from a friend of affirmation.

They know how fast and hard the darkness can come.  They have lived it.

They see me shining.


It is not me they see, it’s Him,

This is the because:

His brilliance shines despite weakness.


Because He spoke, I can and will.

“Let there be light.”



**Video sent to my inbox.  “Let There Be Light”

*a lyric from Remedy Drive — “Hope”



5 Minute Fridays/ Spiritual

The Whispers I Hear

A Whispered Mantra. You are loved.

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Participating in  5 Minute Fridays. 5 minutes to write about one word. Unedited.

This weeks word: Whisper


He whispers to me today; I lean in to listen.

I have been with you, Amy.

I am currently with you, I have gone before you, and I will be with you in this next season.  I will never leave you or forsake you.

I see you feel weak, this is prime time for me to make you strong.  You feel weak, but did you know that in me you can move mountains?  I am doing more inner work in you.  Just you wait! You will see and rejoice in me.

I have called you out of darkness into marvelous light. Shine! Remember the moment we had long ago when I gave you this word? It was a branding of sorts. Keep shining.

You are not your own. You have been bought with a price. You are mine. You belong. I see you. I get you. I know you, I call you child. You are a NEW creation.  The old has passed.  Look, Amy!  The new has come.  You. Have. Been. Made. New. Remember the hashtag?  Live in this reality.  #LivingNew

Stay close to me.  Abide.  I am safe. My grace and kindness toward you is immeasurable. My love will never run out. I am your hiding place; I will preserve you from trouble; I will surround you with words of truth and deliverance.
Do you hear, my child?  These are My whispered words to you. Listen up. Snuggle in. I’ve got you.  I’ve got it all.

 I respond. “You are a hiding place for me you preserve me from trouble.” (‭Psalm‬ ‭32‬:‭7‬ ESV)



5 Minute Fridays/ Spiritual

Finish Strong


Participating in Lisa-Jo’s 5 Minute Fridays. 5 minutes to write about one word. Unedited.

Word: Finish



It. Is. Finished.

His Words uttered on that cross, remind me that I am not–


Today I felt very cross, and frankly was quite finished with myself.

Over it.  Over my inability to deal rightly with what comes my way.

Life overwhelming. Lies telling me that the strong finish I long for is out of reach.


The enemy whispers lies, and even shouts them loud from mouths of loved ones.

They aren’t really saying what I hear so loud. Again– the enemies’ work.

If only I could remember those final words;

“It. Is. Finished.”

How He finished it for me so I am not.

If only I could remember I am on the winning team.

Why do I pay attention to the loser that whispers “Loser”

He wants me to believe that I am. What a Loser.

Here is the truth of the matter

Hear the truth of the matter

It. Is. Finished.

No matter what my emotions, others, or the enemy tells me

I can finish strong because He’s already done the work and won.

Where does that leave me?