Cancer Health Update-Scan is Negative!

I wrote a cancer health update post last Wednesday, letting you all know my Oncologist had found a lump on my neck & ordered a CT scan of my brain, neck and chest. The results came quickly thanks to a brand new scan location that has state of the art scanning and results within 24 hours.  I called my doctor on Friday and the nurse read the results:

ALL SCANS NEGATIVE FOR CANCER.  NO SIGN OF CANCER.

I am so thankful. I am so relieved.  Honestly, I was bracing myself this time. I think it was because of how it took me off guard that my doctor felt something that I had no idea about.  Usually I am pretty in tune with my body & any lumps and bumps it might have.  I had no clue there was a swollen node in my neck.  We still don’t know why it is swollen, but at least we know there is no evidence of growing disease. I was also bracing myself for the worst because of the location of the node. The neck is not a place you want cancer to come back in, as it places you in an automatic stage iv.

It was a long 10 days of waiting for the scan and results, and is not a place I chose to be or put my family in, but God does not waste tears or fears.  He took mine and reminded me again that He holds it all.  I am thankful for the perspective that only the troubles in this life can bring.  Believe me, I’d rather not experience it, and of course it is easy to say that now that everything turned out ok, but there is something about being in the valley, knowing God is trustworthy & feeling the prayers of hundreds of people. It is beautiful.

I described it to a friend as “fearful peace.”  I was afraid, I got caught up in the “what-if’s” a few times–especially when thinking about my sweet Todd and my sweet girls having to face hardship with me if cancer was back–but even in the fear and what-if’s I had a peace that really made no sense to have. That is what God does.

I am rejoicing, but honestly I have been a bit reflective and contemplative since receiving my good news, which creates a bit of a serious mood.  I just know that there are so many others who are not getting good news. Being close to what could have been tragic, makes me feel so deeply for others who are in the midst of their own tragedy and suffering.  There is so much hardship happening all around.

I read my brain scan results, I’m overwhelmed with gratitude,  and then I beg God to mend another brain. His name is Paul– would you pray?  His bride and daughter are dear to me, & they stand and watch him suffer with a traumatic brain injury from a car accident.

His bride is so lovely, & has been amazing to watch.  Sorrowful yet with hope & joy. Courageous tears. Grieving while still walking forward.

She shared these verses on Facebook this morning & they touched me deeply. I pray they comfort anyone else who is going through struggles of their own.

Verses For The Darkness & Struggle

When you pass through he waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.  When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.

I will bring the blind by a way they did not  know; I will lead them in paths they have not known I will make darkness light before them, and crooked places straight. These things I will do for them, and not forsake them.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God (I will praise His word), in God I have put my trust; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me?

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?

{Micah 7:8, Isaiah 43:2-3, Psalms 23:4, Psalms 56:3-4, Psalms 27:1}

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Thank you for your prayers for my sweet friends.  Thank you for your prayers and comments of love to me. I was overwhelmed with so much love & kindness expressed towards me. Love to you all!