Well, tomorrow is Chemo Round 3. I have mixed emotions about it. I am excited to just get on with it as we stretched it out to 4 weeks in between treatments instead of the normal 3 weeks due to low blood counts, and my desire to be feeling well for my girls spring break.
I am apprehensive as I know with this round, I will get the shot that brings on the bone pain and spirals me into a weakness that is hard to explain.
I also will be getting the test results back from the side pain I have been having (details on my Caring Bridge journal). I won’t lie, I am afraid of what could be coming my way with those results.
My mind could easily get carried away with the “what -ifs” and heads there too often despite my fight to keep truth in mind.
I plan on blasting the song “Lovely Day” tomorrow morning before chemo, it always brightens my day. The phrase in the chorus “Heaven on the inside, my soul is gonna fly away” is one that is comforting to me. I have Jesus in my life –Him in me– and because of that my soul can soar daily, no matter what the circumstances.