I pray everyday to give me more time here on earth with my friends and family. I pray to allow me to wake each morning to see another beautiful day he has created. I pray to grow old with my loving husband. I pray to see my sisters get older and graduate and one day marry (not that I’m rushing that one). I pray to be cured from this horrible disease that has affected so many people I love and grown to have a relationship with. I pray that one day this will all be a bad dream, but grow so much stronger from this (I know I will never forget this, this has made me who I am) I pray that one day that I can live my life somewhat normally without the BIG C hanging over my head. I pray that one day I will have a family of my own and be called Mommy. Out of all these things I have mentioned I pray that whatever God’s will be done, not mine. I want whatever God has in store for me next, because he knows what is best for me.
I know my husband does not read my journals, but I want everyone that reads to know, I would not be where I am today without my husband or God…he is the most amazing man that anyone could ever ask for, I love him dearly and I’m so grateful that he really does love me unconditionally. I have heard stories of men that have left there wife’s during treatment, because A.) They couldn’t handle it (they couldn’t!! imagine what the one ACTUALLY going through it feels like!!) or B.) They just didn’t want to deal with all the stress and headache “CANCER” deals with. It definitely has it’s ups and downs, but John always says, “We have to do what we have to” we really have no choice in the matter. So thank you to all those husbands out there, that really mean…In sickness and in health, cause John did!
CoffeeJitters
March 20, 2011 at 8:26 amsome of the most amazing women I have met in my life have been fellow cancer survivors. Such a great story about how you met. Best wishes to all of you. (I finished up radiation in January – no one tells you how ugly burned skin can be… blech! and, OUCH! But it has faded back to red now and stopped hurting)
Magpie Shinies
March 19, 2011 at 5:03 pmI’m in my 3rd year of my fight against breast cancer (I was diagnosed at 34), so I can sympathize with everything here, and some days I feel like I am not fighting cancer so much as enduring it. So I’ve stretched out my hand in friendship b/c we need as much support as we can get.
Thank you again for the posting.
The Pennington Point
March 18, 2011 at 2:22 pmGod is amazing! I love her now too.
One of my dearest friends came over to me in a restaurant 13 years ago and said, “You look like someone I need to know.” And we’ve been great friends ever since.
I love this story! Lisa~
jeana
March 17, 2011 at 9:31 pmthis is beautiful! i love that you both have eachother. i will keep Amanda and her family in my prayers, as I do you and yours Amy.