Cancer Journey/ HEALTH/ Spiritual

Struggling To Surrender

Fearing to launch on “full surrenders” tide,
I asked the Lord where would its waters glide
My little boat, “To troubled seas I dread?”
     “Unto Myself,” He said.

Weeping beside an open grave I stood,
In bitterness of soul I cried to God:
“Where leads this path of sorrow that I tread?”
    “Unto Myself,” He said.

Striving for souls, I loved the work too well;
Then disappointments came; I could not tell
The reason, till He said, “I am your all;
     Unto Myself I call.”

Watching my heroes—those I love the best—
I saw them fail; they could not stand the test,
Even by this the Lord, through tears not few,
     Unto Himself me drew.

Unto Himself! No earthly tongue can tell
The bliss I find, since in His heart I dwell;
The things that charmed me once seem all as naught;
     Unto Himself I’m brought.

from Streams In The Desert

It IS bliss when I surrender.  When I rest.  When I give Him my “what-if’s.”  When I trust.

Oh Lord, help me to surrender, help me to not fear.  Help me to stay in the boat and FIGHT, all the while surrendering to the Tide, no matter where YOU take me.  You know what is best for YOUR purpose.  You know what is BEST for me.

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  • Heather Gross
    September 10, 2010 at 1:32 am

    I love your spirituality you bring to your life. Your love for God and family and life and others shows through everything I read on your blog. I am so sorry to hear about your upcoming bout with cancer. I am praying for you.

  • Anonymous
    September 8, 2010 at 7:09 pm

    I’m so glad you have a place to write and blog about your life. Because of that you have an army of people who will stand with you in prayer.
    Your life brings so much encouragement and joy to so many lives and I pray that all you have sown in to others lives will be heaped back on you abundantly. I pray healing over your body and peace to your heart, mind, and family.

  • sandra
    September 7, 2010 at 11:55 pm

    wonderful poem, half the battle with cancer is staying positive and keeping communication open.Lots of Hugs and blessings Sandra

  • jeana
    September 7, 2010 at 4:25 pm

    Been thinking and praying for you non stop. God will give you the strength and courage to get through this and come out of it even stronger!

  • Heidi Elyse
    September 7, 2010 at 6:32 pm

    Amy, I am the girl that emailed you early talking about my mother. She used this exact poetry when she was battling. You can do it Amy; with God’s strength. Maybe He will even use you to lead the way to Christ for many lost souls.

  • Amy Kinser
    September 7, 2010 at 5:33 pm

    I am praying for you, Amy. I am sorry for this that you are going through but rejoice that you know Who holds your future in His hands.

  • Kindra-At Home With K
    September 7, 2010 at 4:22 pm

    I missed your Saturday post. I’m so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers that you will Beat this ugly thing!! Sending hugs your way.

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