I was not going to list the gifts today. I just was not feeling it. I felt it would have been forced after a morning of feeling anxious about the smallest things, and impatient with my girls who are all home from school today –this sentence was paused to work through yet another little girls squabbling drama–sigh. Things feel off kilter here in our home this morning, and my response is not one of patience.
I was scrolling through facebook and came upon Ann Voskamps post, titled “What’s The Answer To Anxiety?” I smiled before I even read it, knowing it would be just what I needed to find my thanks and joy today. It was.
Here is my practicing of thanks, despite emotions that take time to catch up with what I know to be true.
I have so much to be thankful for.
I feel the knot in my stomach already starting to unravel. I feel my head slowly lift. I am grateful.
~the fact that our thanks is accepted by God despite feet dragging
~my home. It’s “up keep” triggered some of my anxiety today. I’m starting to see how silly that is.
~my precious girls. The privilege of being their mom and teacher.
~coffee and oatmeal with dried cranberries
~a friends determination to keep making great choices. The inspiration that brings to me.
~energy and health.
~my husband. His ability to prioritize. His decision long ago to put God and family first.
~meeting writers that live in my own city through facebook! A lunch date set with 6 of them. Can’t wait!
~music. How it calms. How it makes me move. How it causes me to look up.
~NO DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS in the month of January. First time I can say that since diagnosis. Oh–other than a dentist appointment. My dentist is my bro-in-law, and he rocks so that doesn’t count.
~realizing that I do not think of death or cancer on a daily basis anymore. Healing that time brings.
~a growing community of readers on Facebook. The ease of communication with precious people who support my words. Seeing their faces in their profile pics. I LOVE it! Come join us?
Laura, Liberty Farm ChroniclesJanuary 17, 2012 at 5:58 pm
Amy, I originally “found” your blog b/c of a pin somewhere on Pinterest…Then, I “saw” you on Monday’s over at Ann’s. Just want to pop in and and say hi, and that I’m so glad God prompted you, (thanks Ann),to number gifts. NO DOCTOR’S APPOINTMENTS is the one that moved me the most…I’m far away from home,caring for my dad who was released just 3 days ago from a Boston hospital following 2 rounds of chemo for leukemia. We rejoice with you for the freedom from appointments for January, the new liberty in your thought life, and prayerfully hope that we will announce the same sometime in the future. Whew-lots of words…Blessings!
AleneJanuary 17, 2012 at 3:25 am
I’m counting today and beginning the journey. Love your lists – love that you count no matter what. Isn’t that what it’s all about. Counting blessings when we don’t feel like it or don’t want to. Thanks. Glad I found your bloggy world.
Melissa, Multi-Tasking MamaJanuary 16, 2012 at 8:21 pm
Love the idea of finding other local writers…I so need to do that! Counting gifts with you!
LindaJanuary 16, 2012 at 6:44 pm
A friend, Deidra, pointed me in your direction today. I am so thankful. Your list is so encouraging. I feel as though I have found a new friend.