Well, I saw Dr. M today, my Oncologist. She is the most calming person! She walks in and brings her smile, knowledge and care with her, which I always appreciate.
She felt my lump area, and was able to push through it and find a 1/2 centimeter area that she is wondering about. It is in the same area that a lymph node was found in my upper chest, right under my old port incision. She wants to look into it further with a breast MRI next week. I have an appointment on Monday and will have results a few days after that. Even if it is just a lymph node, it is right in the path between where my old tumor was and positive nodes under my arm, so she wants to keep a close eye on it. She also said that usually you should not be able to feel lymph nodes, and this is the second time in a month that she has, so an MRI is the way to go.
She still feels like the largeness and roundness of what I can see in that area is due to radiated tissue moving around and bunching. That was relieving, in that if we do find cancer, its not this large tumor growing out of me. I’d much rather be dealing with cancer in a lymph node than a secondary tumor. I breathed easier when I realized this.
I could feel the area roll under her fingers as she felt around and it was a small bit tender. It gave me the ebee-jeebies when she would do it. Blech.
I am doing much better emotionally. I say this every time– but the minute I let you all know about any health concerns, I am blanketed in peace. I know this is your prayers for me and it really is amazing. You help remind me that God has been and is so close and has brought so many amazing things my way while dealing with this cancer crap. He knows what He is doing, so I can let go. Why do I so often forget this??
Love to you all.